personally i think promises you made were just temporary. hell of course you love me. thank you. but seriously. what is love? its not just about saying those 3 words i believe. its more to it than u know.

i know im not perfect.
not close to it
probably never.
i was never a good gf
i always promise i'd change
but i never kept it
and u promise u'd make me happy
but....
i guess promises are not meant to be kept
not for me
i guess now not for you
yes im to be blamed for leaving you
i was stupid enough to leave
but now it got me thinking again
has it brought us closer
or has it not
how come i rarely smile now
how come im always angry
is that u making me feel that way
or its just me thinking too much
most of the time now i felt im just an option for you
i know friends comes first after family of course
but i was made an option when friends come into the picture
ALWAYS
u never notice
never
i swear u never notice
because why?
cos i was and always an option
u used to surprise me
when we got back together
like for a few weeks
said uve been wanting to do that all
that suddenly i became ur number one priority
but now?
laziness gets to you
suddenly everything else comes first
u know what that made me feel
f-ed up
i understand this is nothing compared to what i did
but u made promises
so sweetly u reel me back in
then what happens??
now that i want to surprise u
suddenly friends come first
i was an option dammit
an option



tell me. did i make the right decision