and it all comes down to my face. that callous hands of yours fell nicely but painfully across my soft cheeks. fresh tears kept streaming down those beautiful tender cheeks. i breathed hard. while your callous words rang irritably through my ears. and you do that right at the front of the doorsteps in clear view and hearing of the curious neighbours. you know well enough. your hot tempered idiosyscrasies was passed down to me. i must blame the genes, but then again, its the work of God Almighty. and so, i'm still young, still new to the cruel yet pleasant world i live in. i have no control over my emotions which you jolly well have a whole lot of room and space to do that. do you have any idea how that has inflicted me? you always attend to your furies first before even thinking of the feelings your're going to hurt.MY feelings. its always, always, always ME. honestly i dont have any more room for you left in my heart. you are so unpredictable. i dont know what the hell is going on with you. i have not and will not forget whatever shits that you have thrown to me. i should have congratulate you each time you inflicted pain to me because now i'm assuming thats your sweet victory aye? you always always always embarassed me. what am i to you? i'm not your toy to play with alright. i swear i had enough. if you have your passion i have mine too. if you'd go all out to pursue your dreams your passion your love for something..then why cant i do that too? is that so hard to understand. the world doesnt just revolves around you, you get it? let me have my life. this is the time i have my fun. you had yours when you were young. why wont you let me have mine? you just want to have the fun and happiness all to yourself. is that it?

i'll put my hands down.

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